Sunday, December 12, 2010

THIS is my last post. I PROMISE!!

I know I said I wasn't going to post anything anymore but I couldn't help it. It's 4.11AM right now, and I'm so tired of studying. In fact, I hate it. I've never studied a day in my high school career. Now that I'm in college, I'm pretty much making it all up....in one week.....D:. So gayyyy. I so hope I pass this final. I'm trying my best to study but I keep getting distracted. It's really hard to concentrate especially when I never had to concentrate this much or this hard. All I can think about is coming out of the testing room with a smile on my face. Sleep. Eat. Study for my next final but not as hard. And see my girlfriend with an ambition like no other. I'm going to hug her so tight until my arms are tired. It feels as if I haven't seen her in months because of this studying thing. Gosh I hate it....

So. My mom forced me to go to this protest fundraiser for the Vietnamese Independence. I come there. You know what I see? I see a bench. Oh, and old people. I get at the bench and doze off. There's music, clapping, talking, the loud stuff. I still fall asleep though. My mom came up to me and woke me up. She told me that people were laughing at me because I was doing the "head-bobbing" when I was sleeping. My mouth was open as well. I smiled and said that I didn't care lols. So she made me sit next to her, and guess what??

My girlfriend and her siblings are sitting no more than 3 feet away from me. I didn't know though. I noticed nothing. I tried waking myself up by going to the bathroom and washing my face. That didn't help. I walked outside into the cold and it helped, but not for long. I came back in and pulled a chair NEXT TO my girlfriend's brother towards me. I used the backrest so I could rest my head. I don't know how to describe that but, I crossed my arms and laid on it on top of the backrest. If you can picture that, then I described it well xP

Anyways..., I took the chair next to her brother and I didn't notice it. My mom then told me to get up and go eat with her, so we left. As I left, the lover yelled out my name. I didn't hear anything....

I was forced to eat at a restaurant nearby, and it sucked. I saw one of my Sunday school students though haha. She saw me and turned her whole head and literally just RAN so I couldn't see her. I totally saw her haha. Where she sat was on the way to the bathroom so I went to the bathroom. As I walked out, I made sure my student saw me and I did what she did. I turned my head and ran, but of course made it obvious. Her whole face turned read haha. It was fun. Since Sunday is TOMORROW, I'm going to call her out xP.

I didn't even finish the food, so I had to get it "to-go'd". When I left, my mom wanted to drive. When I was driving up there, I wasn't doing so well because I was tired. I wonder how I am going to do driving back up to college tomorrow....That's going to worry my mom. The lover told me that I was mean. She told me about how I didn't say hi or ANYTHING to her at the protest thingy. I obviously didn't see her there, so I couldn't? She saw that I was really tired, but she didn't know that I was all dlkfj;lskdfldskflkjf and not knowing who was there. If I knew she was there, I'd go be with her, but....I didn't...sucks.

You know what her mom said though? To not say anything unless I said hi to her first. So lame....That was the WHOLE REASON why I couldn't talk or sit with her. Because she saw me but couldn't say anything to me. lols. Oh wells. That's what I get for being a good student and studying.... I find that funny as well. My mom is mad at me for studying so much lols. Parents...xP

Just a couple of more days until I can breathe again....I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!
I just forgot what I was going to talk more about....I guess that's a sign to go back to studying...Sighhhh....ttyl....


See that? I want to be him right now.....Sleeping...Oh how I love sleep...):

Friday, December 10, 2010

THIS will be my LAST post til after finals :)

It's 3.26AM and I have still been studying....I know I said I wouldn't post anything else up but oh wells....xP
this will be the last one xD


I texted the lover to call me "ASAP", and she did lols

It was basically a trick to get her to call and talk to me. Guess what though? Her siblings seem to be okay with me!!!! haha

You know how some boyfriends try to get the girlfriend's little brother or sister to like him for various reasons? Well, I don't know what any of those reasons are right now, since I just tried to think but nothing came up. You guys can probably think of a lot but I'm up late for educational purposes. No need to think of these things xP

I got the lover's siblings presents too xD It is not to get the to like me lols Though, I really have no idea if they really are okay with me....haha but I guess time will take its course. I got her sister some music I think she might like but I don't know what to get for her brother. I thought about giving him some money, but in my culture, I got to ACTUALLY be old to do that with no disrespect or get frowned upon hehe...Giving people money at my age means I have no respect to the person. When older, you work to get money. And giving money to young ones at that age means that you're giving them something you earned and worked for. At my age, right now, I don't work. So if I give them money, I basically giving them money that was just given to me I never worked for it.

I wrote girlfriend's brother a letter, but hopefully it won't seem to gay for him haha. I tried writing it in a way that it wouldn't be awkward. Quite hard actually....since I'm a lovey dovey person....

I hope one day I could play basketball with him, or play against him in games. Of course I would totally own him...xP haha. He might kick my booty-meat in games. I don't play that much anymore, but I DO play xD

I remember getting Halo: Reach and I played it day and night, switching from campaign mode (story mode) to live (playing online). Once school actually hit me though, I had to stop playing....my xbox live had to be over and studying would eventually start. haha

I DO hope, though, that getting them presents doesn't make things awkward.....I want to get them presents only because I got my love one xD

It wouldn't seem fair to see an older sibling get something, and not you. Giving is so much better than receiving...getting is fun too, but I'm just now getting used to receiving xD

I usually never get anything for my birthday and other holidays, but that'll be a story for another day. Back to studying. No more posts!!!! This is the last one!!! xDDD

Thursday, December 9, 2010

5-minute Break

I've been studying for ONE of my finals for about 20 hours. The final isn't until Monday but I have to pass it or else my life will be over...
Finals week being called, Dead Week, is truly based on how the studying is. I feel like passing out...sa;lkdfjl;skdfjlsd;k

 I haven't worked out in so long, I feel so fat. My girlfriend won't talk to me until my finals are over. Sucks to be me...but how she loves me so...xD

I won't be posting anything until after my finals lols

My underglow finally came into the palms of my hands though xD
No cracks, no defects. After Dead Week, I'm going to have fun putting my lights under the car haha

Boy I miss her already....haha
I guess I'll go back to studying. I gotta pee first though xD
Let's hope my dream doesn't come true xP

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

My dream..lols...

Sooooo...This was my dream.....

I walk into the bathroom, and since I have a community bathroom there was some guy peeing. He spontaneously farted and for some reason my foot was wet. You know what the guy said to me???
You know what he said???~!?!!?~!!

He said, " SORRY...."                                        

What the crap is that?!?!?! You pee on my foot and all you can say is sorry??? I was going to knock him out but I woke up. The end. xD

Monday, December 6, 2010

My stomach hurts..

My stomach hurts....a lot...all day...

Friday, December 3, 2010

You left me so I locked the door.

You called me last night. Why?
You will never receive this letter and I know you are probably thinking that I really don't care jack squat about you. I'm writing this little letter, or whatever it can be, in the one spot I can be at peace and think straight -- outside on my porch. I'm struggling because I don't know how to say what I once told you over and over by the way you see my life now. Part of me wishes you were here with me so I could do this in person, but we both know that's impossible. So here I am, groping for words with anguish and sadness. I hope that you'll somehow forgive me for what I'm about to write...

Do you remember how we met? We met through school. We met through music. It was the kind of music that brings people together, but instead you made it the kind of music that tears everyone apart.
You hurt me. Guess what though? I'm over it. You and I did not share anything wonderful, and I want you to never forget that. Nor do I want you to believe that you meant as much to me as I did to you. You meant quite a lot to me but you didn't want that.

I know that sounds like an excuse, but please believe me when I say that I haven't forgotten about you. I'll understand if you never want to talk to me, though you randomly call me, just as I'll understand if you end up hating me again. Writing this letter forces me to acknowledge that, and when I look in the mirror, I know I'm looking at someone who is happy....without you...

The one I'm with shared and IS sharing everything that is wonderful. I want her to, and she does, to believe that she means more than anything to me as I do to her. She is rare and beautiful. I fell in love with her, but more than that, meeting her made me realize what true love really means. Ever since I met her, I've always been looking up into the night and remembering everything her and I have been through together. When I close my eyes, I see her face. When I walk, it's almost as if I can feel her hand in mine. Those things are real to me, a magical bond that keeps us together. You and I had nothing.


Even though you may not want to hear it, I want you to know that you'll always a spot in my memories. In our time together, you said that there was a special place in your heart for me to claim, one you said you would carry forever and that no one could have ever replaced. You lied. 


The one I love right now... There's a special place in my heart for her to claim, one I would carry forever with no one replacing it. The only difference between me and you is that...I'm not lying. I have never said that to you, nor will I ever. She's the kind and honest girl, but more than that, she's the first girl I ever truly love and care for. And no matter what the future brings, she will always be, and I know that my life is better for it. 


I don't hate you, but I hate you. You left me. My door is locked, so stop knocking. I won't answer. I have my special someone over.

I'm so sorry..
Sincerely, me.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

The 1st morning of December.

The coldest morning I've ever had so far...and this is how it happened:
I woke up.
I brushed my teeth.
I put on a shirt.
I put on a sweater.
Got my bookbag.
Went outside.
The door closes and locks.
I forgot to put on my pants....SO FREAKING COLD!!!!!!!

I ended up walking to class like that with people looking at my legs the whole time hehe....
Everyone wore pants and I didn't...I felt left out. And stupid.

 

For Mr. LB from Mrs. LB

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