Idk which to choose

Since I can get a puppy now, I don't know which one to get. I narrowed it down to the two females haha

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Giving away FREE puppies xD

So...I went to the Mall of Georgia to try and buy a jacket for myself, but they didn't have my size. On my way out though, these people asked me if I wanted puppies. I said nah. Then they said that they were free. I was all, "REALLY?!?!?" So I went to take a look at them. There were originally 7, but 2 froze to death. Abandoned somewhere, but I don't remember how they found them. Oh wells. Instead of getting one for myself, I ended up helping out since they sucked at finding them homes. They said they were just going to leave them in front of a PetCo and leave.... I found quick homes for them so tomorrow they should all be given away haha. They look like they are Boxers, but are definitely mixed. Girlfriend told me to take a few pictures. Excuse the quality though. I took them from a camcorder ( Not really made for pictures xD ). I recorded two videos though of the one I like the most.Come to think of it, I think I took A LOT of pictures haha btw...ignore my hair!

My favorite one xD

This one is a girl.

Cute!

This is the second girl. Her and the black one are the only girls.

My dad wanted to take the pictures now haha

btw. You like my lambo? xP

You know how in Clifford that one episode when he had this one itch, if you scratched his leg, it would thump like crazy? That's what one of the puppies did!!!! I recorded it too xP

Here's the last one I recorded. She was scratching herself...A LOT. lols

Aren't they adorable? haha didn't expect my day to turn out like this though. My day DID also end up with Mrs. Lamebutt getting mad at me....I promised to sleep before 1 since I keep sleeping late. I DID sleep before one though. I made SURE I was knocked out BEFORE it actually turned 1. Sooo....TECHNICALLY I slept before 1. Yay me? idk if that cuts it for her though. Mrs. Lamebutt is her name now xP





I GET TO KEEP A PUPPY!!!!! xD!!! lols I want to keep the one that I like but I'm not sure. It's a girl and I don't want it getting pregnant lols

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Clothing Continued?

Since I was talking about clothes before, I just want to say something that I noticed. The clothes that are usually cheap, are usually the "gangster" clothes. Graphic tees with the badass Sesames Street characters, and skulls on everything....

Then the PROPER clothing. The clothing that usually is appropriate for pretty much everyone. They are expensive...o.O. If you want to NOT look like a hoodlum, you have to spend more money. Funny lols
btw...

Who lets a BABY WEAR THIS SHIRT?!?!?

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Express Clothing

You know what my girlfriend turned me into??? I'll tell you....a MONSTER!! I never liked clothing that I call "white brands", which were Aeropostle, Hollister, American Eagle, etc.. I had only liked Express and Armani Exchange. And the occasional Louis Vulton, but that's FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR TOOOO expensive lols. I would always dress "gangster-like" and of course, a lot of people wanted me to stop it. My girlfriend wants me to dress like the mannequins from Express and.....for some reason I want to have their clothes more than ever haha. idk how I've become like this, but I am now addicted to Express.

I only have a few clothes from there, but of course is because Express clothes don't come cheap haha
Some of the clothes i don't like, but it's fine. It's the cardigans and the clothes with the feminine touch that gets me iffy. Other than that, I'm fine. Oh and of course the skinny ties. I'm not fond of those. It's hard to explain....i'm so used to the normal ties. I'm a dressy person and I DEFINITELY am picky about dress clothes. I'm pretty much cocky about my dress clothes. I know what's good and what's not good. Down from color and style to the fabric and if-it-shrinks-in-dryer haha.

I don't care too much about T-shirts and polos but this is what I want from Express so far lols:

So cool....xP

 

I already have a pea coat, but it's old. Doesn't look like it but it is. I like this one xD

There will be one thing that will never change though....my shoes. They will forever be my shoes. My kicks. What I rock. Jays. Forces. ALLL MINE!!!

Lakers fan xD

Precious xP

I'll be the guy who wears all these nice, basically preppy, clothes and all of a sudden...BAM! Flyest kicks ANYONE has ever seen xP


 

There will be a End of Season sale and I WILL BE there xP I'ma save up a crapload of money and shop my ass off haha. You see what she did to me? I AM a monster. I feel like those girls who posts up their clothes and clothes they WANT to have...but oh wells lols.

I love my girlfriend, but she made me love Express a lot more now haha. I'll pretty much soon be her Express mannequin haha

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Made my day

I'm going to make this short, simple, and sweet. I was watching the Falcons game today. You know how the camera always shows people who show their fan signs? Well this person was holding theirs upside down....on NATIONAL TV!!! LMAO!!!! Here's a picture of it haha. My friend took it from the TV.

Too funny...HAHAHA I would hate to be that person..xP

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I had a dream last night. It was something weird, which I would never even think about, really. It was a dream that the world was a science experiment. There were butt ugly aliens that watched over the solar system and conducted tests on us.

Come to think of it, why does every alien have to be so ugly? Why can't they look like a magic carpet or something? Or maybe a waking sunflower?

Anywayyyyyysssss, The weather was their way of testing how we would react. They made it rain to see our reaction to water. Lightning was their way of testing our reaction to electrical stimulus, and it was really weird.
When I woke up, I thought my dream meant something. ( I'm still laying in bed right now lols ). I thought it was like that one lady who predicted the 9/11 incident. No one would listen to her. Guess what? It happened.
So this might happen.

I heard my parents wake up but it didn't really influence of what I was going to do. I looked at my window and yelled out, " Aye!!! You stupid aliens!!!! You want some?!? COME GET SOME!!!!! RAWRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ".

My mom came in with her heart coming out of her chest. She asked what was wrong. I simply said that I was cursing out the aliens in the sky. She simply called me stupidly insane.....

Watch. When those aliens come, she'll be running to me. I'll be saving my girlfriend and everyone else would be apologizing to me and asking for help. Why? I'D BE PREPARED FOR THIS!!!!!

........

Okay. I just took 30 seconds to yell at them again. I said, " Alright you stupid freakazoids!!! I KNOW YOUR PLAN!!!! I WILL SHUT YOU DOWNNNNN!!!!!! ".

I hope they believe me, because the truth is.......I don't know their plans....I'm just bluffing...I hope they don't manage to find out my blog and read this lols.

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Fortune Tellers

 I was randomly thinking. You know those fortune tellers?

I think they're stupid. I mean c'mon!!!!!
They say the most generalized stuff and WHOOP-DEE-DOO, people believe them like they're gods.

I can be one too if I wanted to.

All I would have to do is say stuff like, " I'm looking in my magic glass ball...I....I....I see something.....".
Then the person would repeat what over and over and over.

" You lost something most dear to you in the past...."

lols. I think everyone has lost something most dear in the past. I know I have. You see how general I'm becoming? suckers....xP

The guy would gasp from shock and be so amaze. I'd just say that he would soon find it in the near future. He'd be all happy and whatnot and give me money thinking I have great magical powers.

So gullible...xP!! haha

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Myspace and Facebook

It's funny how I used to tell myself and many others,

" Facebook is boring. I would never use it. Myspace is more fun. "

Look at me now though. I'm a facebook addict....Every single day I would get on facebook. It doesn't matter if I have no notifications or any invites to any events, I just HAVE to get on. I don't do anything. I just get on.  Sometimes I just click the home button over and over, but I don't know why. Nothing new pops up after 50 times of clicking home.....

Myspace used to be the shiznit though. With HTML, my backgrounds and layout would be so super duper cool!!! Facebook doesn't do that but trust me....you won't care haha. Now that I think about it, that's all I can think of about Myspace. The layouts. Nothing more. So I guess facebook IS better, but everybody knows everything about you with everything you post lols. If you have facebook, everyone knows your life without even having to talk to you....creeper-ish...haha.

Myspace started looking like facebook though. Every update and every upgrade - it would have something to do with the similarity of facebook. The statuses, the way things are sent and viewed - all copied from facebook. There IS one thing facebook copied from Myspace though. I could have this backwards, but hopefully I'm right. Facebook copied the instant messaging from Myspace. Wait. I think I'm wrong. Or maybe I'm right. Oh wells!!! Someone copied from someone!!!

I felt like logging on Myspace for some reason today and guess what? It's not a social networking site like it used to be anymore. It is now an "Entertainment Network". Myspace isn't even Myspace. It's " My_Space". Yes. The underscore matters.... It's nothing but a music sharing website. Not the kind of music sharing where music is illegally downloaded, but then again everyone does that. I'm not saying I do that ( this is the internet. I will not say I download music for free or will I say I pay for music. xD) lols.

Facebook is better than Myspace. The end.

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Man to Man

 In a man to man conversation, how can you talk deeply in a way that isn't awkwardly gay?


I was talking to one of my friends today and I just realized how it can work. All of a sudden (I don't want to call him gay but, it was really gay) he just starts talking all femininely.  Don’t get me wrong, I love giving advice and all for people who needs it, but the way he approached the problem to me…it was sort of weird, and of course….gay… He just all of a sudden busted out crying about how he misses his ex so much. I don’t like it when people cry but I held my head up, mostly because of the shock that I was in from him blowing up. He told me how he misses her face and the way she talks to him. He then asks me how I felt about my girlfriend. Instead of me answering, I just asked him about his present girlfriend. You know what he told me? His present girlfriend is his bounce back. I was all wtf??

I then asked him what was wrong with him. He all of a sudden became the opposite of what he was, before crying. He all of a sudden said that his ex is a previously owned vehicle and that he is now into that new car smell – his present girlfriend. I got so confused, but I called him an asshole.

With that said, I just said to myself to answer his question he had asked me. This was when I found out how guys can talk to each other in deep thought. It is for the guy that is listening, to call the one talking gay while talking. This is how I remembered the conversation:

    Mr. LB: I’m going to answer your question now.

    Friend: Why? She seems so controlling. All she ever does is make you become the girl. What happened to you being the guy I once knew?

    Mr. LB: Knew?

    Friend: Yeah. The guy who wasn’t thinking each and every minute about how to be romantic with a girl….

    Mr. LB: Look man…She’s the most amazing girl in the whole world. I love her. She’s the only girl that makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time…

    Friend: You are so gay right now…

    Mr. LB: When I’m not with her…I’m not living. I only exist until I can hold her in my arms again.

    Friend: Wow. That is the gayest thing I’ve ever heard.

    Mr. LB: What about you?

    Friend: Dawg, my ex is the only girl I’ve come to ever think about. But I don’t know if I will ever be able to win her back. Every single time I think about her, I want to cry.

    Mr. LB: You’re gayer than me…At least I don’t cry.

    Friend: I love you man.

    Mr. LB: You’re gay. I love you too.

    Friend: Faggot.

             

                Other than typing to each other, the only way to actually talk one on one to another guy, you got to call each other gay. Lols. I’m mad how the words I said sounded pretty smooth, but my friend kill everything by calling me gay haha. We then went our separate ways back home. I guess it was a good talk. I guess….lols…

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Locked-in.

So. I'm at my Church lock in right now and I find it pretty cool because I'm one of the adults who watch over the kids now. I used to BE the kids haha. Staying up late and playing cards all night. During the lock ins, there would be a Praise and Worship, which is pretty self explanatory. The only part that isn't self explanatory though, is the music during the Praise and Worship. We would have our own band and we would sing and dance all night long. There would also be a time of Adoration, which is a time to reflect in prayer and silence.

After that, the fun stuff begins. We would play games and do fun activities!!! Here's the new thing though. I don't have to participate in the games anymore!!! Whoo!!! I MAKE the games ahha. There was a game where I made the kids bowl with potatoes lols. They had a lot of fun. The very simple games, but making it competitive, but not TOOO competitive is very fun for them. Yelling and screaming out chants. Do funny dances and moves for the laughter. Learning in ways so fun, you'd never expect anything like it.

Now I'm in a very big room with the male kids and I'm off far on the side away from them to also make sure they don't do anything stupid. Well I have to stop blogging and let my phone charge with my laptop. The outlet for some reason doesn't work, so ttyl lols

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Girls and Their Make-up.

Girls no matter who they are, where some kind of make up, whether if it's just eyeliner or all of the above. Some just put some on to cover their blemishes, and some just overdo it like icing on a cake. Is it a turn off? To me, it is. When I see a girl with loads of makeup on my impression is that either they are trying hard to seek attention or they have low self esteem and think that makes them look good and hence more liked...that's just the impression I get.

I understand that girls like make up and all, but sometimes "less is more", don't you think? Make-up can make a girl look very pretty, don't get me wrong; but to me it should be an occasional thing. The most a girl really needs on her face is eyeliner and some lip gloss. A lot of girls ask me about if they look pretty with this and that on. I say natural beauty makes a girl look her best. They give me a funny face and just go, " Are you on CRACK??" No I am not on crack. I bet if someone were to take a survey whether a guy likes a girl with make up or not, no make up would win by a landslide. So many guys like a girl who wears less so much more. The guy would be able to touch her face and show affection without the girl going. " Ahhhh, you smudged my makeup!!" Stupid....

I have friends who tell me that the most they do to their girlfriends is kiss them on the lips. Not even cheek. Why? The girls don't want their face to get "ugly". The truth is, if a girl thinks make up is one of their high priorities...THAT'S ugly.

You ask what kind of make up I like on a girl? I'll tell you. I like a girl with either no makeup or a light touch if she is going out. I see girls that got soo makeup on I "can't see her face".
Just as a side note I hate girls who get the tips of there nails done and leave the rest of it blank. Like WTF you too lazy to finish it or are you abrade to get nail polish on your fingers? If you do your nails do the WHOLE fingernail not just the top half of it. Please!...

As for makeup eyeliner, is okay if you use ONE color. Not multi color eyeliner. Use a single color that doesn't stand out too much and just do a light touch.

I like mast lipstick on a girl but there is this one red color that is soo bright and thick looking it makes you stare at her lips and are like OMG what was she thinking (maybe it's a way to get guys to stop looking at her boobs?) just a subtle color or not soo thick would be nice to show off your lips without making them the main focus point. The best lipstick on a girl is lipgloss though lols. Makes their lips very attractive and also softens. Especially when you kiss them xP

 I've never met a woman who looks better with makeup on than she does with it off.

It's a shame because many women are really beautiful and yet a lot of them freak out at the idea of showing their face in public without it being covered in paints and pigments. It's a shame that they're so ashamed of their naked faces because their usually very beautiful.

Every girl is beautiful no matter what anyone says. With make up, sometimes girls are attractive but only when properly used.


Honestly, girls really DO look so beautiful without make up. You know what a natural face tells me? That she is not afraid of what people think. Whoever that likes her and sees her like that everyday, would be the real friends everyone deserves. Think about it. If you're a girl who never used to wear make up, how many friends did you have? how many guys talked to you? Compare that to when you started wearing make up. Did a lot more guys want to talk to you? Did more people want to be your friends? What does that say about them?


They didn't notice you because of your personality. They noticed you because of the false beauty over the REAL beauty that you have. Only the ones you love and care for notice your natural beauty. Only the ones you love and care for loves YOU for who YOU are. Make up does nothing but to hide who you really are.
that's why I like girls who wear less. Makeup are just accents to bring out your natural beauty, not to give you a new fake one.

A girl will ALWAYS look beautiful without make up on. Make up is only supposed to help reveal that beauty, remember that. Trust me.

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Finally over...

My finals are FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The end. xD

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Sincerely, your body.

I'm dying....I feel like shit. Studying like this.....I'm hurting myself and I'm now feeling it. She told me to not kill myself and I said I wouldn't, but I think I am starting to. I just have one more day until the test and then I can finally sleep and study. I would have to study for one more final but it won't be as bad.

My body. You know what it's telling me?

Please....please stop doing this to me....I can't take it anymore and I don't think I can hang on in there any longer. I haven't had any nutrients/food in me for quite some time now. I know studying is something you have to do but how you're doing it is stupid. I don't want to be mean but why didn't you listen to everyone? SHE even told you again and again to stop doing what you're doing. That's why you didn't even notice her even when she was in the same room with you. You're only hurting me and I'm about to shut down. I'm begging you...PLEASE...just PLEASE!!! I don't know how you're managing this. I'm going to pass out. I'm going to crumble. I'm going to fall and it won't be easy to get back up. Please let me sleep. Please give me food. I can't function like this. I'm crying, but there are no tears. You're killing me, but there is no blood. 

I am like a rose. You're not giving me my water and sunlight, my food. I'm wilting. I am not beautiful anymore. I am not glowing anymore. I am not red anymore. I am becoming a dirty color. I am now starting to represent the image of dead.....

You're giving me symptoms that I'm not supposed to have. Just do it for me please? You say you know how to take care of me, but what are you doing now? You've left me stranded. You've left me stranded in the middle of nowhere. I'm collapsing. I have fallen and have gotten back up. You're about to make me fall and lose my ability to survive....

Just one more day, alright body? I have been mean to you and I have been neglecting you. It will all be over soon. Just try your best to hang in there. I'm the one begging to you now. I've only eaten once this weekend, and I've only slept for 3 hours this weekend. I'll eat one more time for you. For you to have the energy to overcome the falling. To overcome your collapsing. You will not die. I promise. It's a promise I will forever keep. You're the one who made me who I am. Without you, I am just a soul. I would be just a soul floating in the universe, not knowing how it would feel to have a life. One more day.

Just one more....

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THIS is my last post. I PROMISE!!

I know I said I wasn't going to post anything anymore but I couldn't help it. It's 4.11AM right now, and I'm so tired of studying. In fact, I hate it. I've never studied a day in my high school career. Now that I'm in college, I'm pretty much making it all up....in one week.....D:. So gayyyy. I so hope I pass this final. I'm trying my best to study but I keep getting distracted. It's really hard to concentrate especially when I never had to concentrate this much or this hard. All I can think about is coming out of the testing room with a smile on my face. Sleep. Eat. Study for my next final but not as hard. And see my girlfriend with an ambition like no other. I'm going to hug her so tight until my arms are tired. It feels as if I haven't seen her in months because of this studying thing. Gosh I hate it....

So. My mom forced me to go to this protest fundraiser for the Vietnamese Independence. I come there. You know what I see? I see a bench. Oh, and old people. I get at the bench and doze off. There's music, clapping, talking, the loud stuff. I still fall asleep though. My mom came up to me and woke me up. She told me that people were laughing at me because I was doing the "head-bobbing" when I was sleeping. My mouth was open as well. I smiled and said that I didn't care lols. So she made me sit next to her, and guess what??

My girlfriend and her siblings are sitting no more than 3 feet away from me. I didn't know though. I noticed nothing. I tried waking myself up by going to the bathroom and washing my face. That didn't help. I walked outside into the cold and it helped, but not for long. I came back in and pulled a chair NEXT TO my girlfriend's brother towards me. I used the backrest so I could rest my head. I don't know how to describe that but, I crossed my arms and laid on it on top of the backrest. If you can picture that, then I described it well xP

Anyways..., I took the chair next to her brother and I didn't notice it. My mom then told me to get up and go eat with her, so we left. As I left, the lover yelled out my name. I didn't hear anything....

I was forced to eat at a restaurant nearby, and it sucked. I saw one of my Sunday school students though haha. She saw me and turned her whole head and literally just RAN so I couldn't see her. I totally saw her haha. Where she sat was on the way to the bathroom so I went to the bathroom. As I walked out, I made sure my student saw me and I did what she did. I turned my head and ran, but of course made it obvious. Her whole face turned read haha. It was fun. Since Sunday is TOMORROW, I'm going to call her out xP.

I didn't even finish the food, so I had to get it "to-go'd". When I left, my mom wanted to drive. When I was driving up there, I wasn't doing so well because I was tired. I wonder how I am going to do driving back up to college tomorrow....That's going to worry my mom. The lover told me that I was mean. She told me about how I didn't say hi or ANYTHING to her at the protest thingy. I obviously didn't see her there, so I couldn't? She saw that I was really tired, but she didn't know that I was all dlkfj;lskdfldskflkjf and not knowing who was there. If I knew she was there, I'd go be with her, but....I didn't...sucks.

You know what her mom said though? To not say anything unless I said hi to her first. So lame....That was the WHOLE REASON why I couldn't talk or sit with her. Because she saw me but couldn't say anything to me. lols. Oh wells. That's what I get for being a good student and studying.... I find that funny as well. My mom is mad at me for studying so much lols. Parents...xP

Just a couple of more days until I can breathe again....I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!
I just forgot what I was going to talk more about....I guess that's a sign to go back to studying...Sighhhh....ttyl....

See that? I want to be him right now.....Sleeping...Oh how I love sleep...):

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THIS will be my LAST post til after finals :)

It's 3.26AM and I have still been studying....I know I said I wouldn't post anything else up but oh wells....xP
this will be the last one xD

I texted the lover to call me "ASAP", and she did lols

It was basically a trick to get her to call and talk to me. Guess what though? Her siblings seem to be okay with me!!!! haha

You know how some boyfriends try to get the girlfriend's little brother or sister to like him for various reasons? Well, I don't know what any of those reasons are right now, since I just tried to think but nothing came up. You guys can probably think of a lot but I'm up late for educational purposes. No need to think of these things xP

I got the lover's siblings presents too xD It is not to get the to like me lols Though, I really have no idea if they really are okay with me....haha but I guess time will take its course. I got her sister some music I think she might like but I don't know what to get for her brother. I thought about giving him some money, but in my culture, I got to ACTUALLY be old to do that with no disrespect or get frowned upon hehe...Giving people money at my age means I have no respect to the person. When older, you work to get money. And giving money to young ones at that age means that you're giving them something you earned and worked for. At my age, right now, I don't work. So if I give them money, I basically giving them money that was just given to me I never worked for it.

I wrote girlfriend's brother a letter, but hopefully it won't seem to gay for him haha. I tried writing it in a way that it wouldn't be awkward. Quite hard actually....since I'm a lovey dovey person....

I hope one day I could play basketball with him, or play against him in games. Of course I would totally own him...xP haha. He might kick my booty-meat in games. I don't play that much anymore, but I DO play xD

I remember getting Halo: Reach and I played it day and night, switching from campaign mode (story mode) to live (playing online). Once school actually hit me though, I had to stop playing....my xbox live had to be over and studying would eventually start. haha

I DO hope, though, that getting them presents doesn't make things awkward.....I want to get them presents only because I got my love one xD

It wouldn't seem fair to see an older sibling get something, and not you. Giving is so much better than receiving...getting is fun too, but I'm just now getting used to receiving xD

I usually never get anything for my birthday and other holidays, but that'll be a story for another day. Back to studying. No more posts!!!! This is the last one!!! xDDD

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5-minute Break

I've been studying for ONE of my finals for about 20 hours. The final isn't until Monday but I have to pass it or else my life will be over...
Finals week being called, Dead Week, is truly based on how the studying is. I feel like passing out...sa;lkdfjl;skdfjlsd;k

 I haven't worked out in so long, I feel so fat. My girlfriend won't talk to me until my finals are over. Sucks to be me...but how she loves me so...xD

I won't be posting anything until after my finals lols

My underglow finally came into the palms of my hands though xD
No cracks, no defects. After Dead Week, I'm going to have fun putting my lights under the car haha

Boy I miss her already....haha
I guess I'll go back to studying. I gotta pee first though xD
Let's hope my dream doesn't come true xP

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My dream..lols...

Sooooo...This was my dream.....

I walk into the bathroom, and since I have a community bathroom there was some guy peeing. He spontaneously farted and for some reason my foot was wet. You know what the guy said to me???
You know what he said???~!?!!?~!!

He said, " SORRY...."                                        

What the crap is that?!?!?! You pee on my foot and all you can say is sorry??? I was going to knock him out but I woke up. The end. xD

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My stomach hurts..

My stomach hurts....a lot...all day...

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You left me so I locked the door.

You called me last night. Why?
You will never receive this letter and I know you are probably thinking that I really don't care jack squat about you. I'm writing this little letter, or whatever it can be, in the one spot I can be at peace and think straight -- outside on my porch. I'm struggling because I don't know how to say what I once told you over and over by the way you see my life now. Part of me wishes you were here with me so I could do this in person, but we both know that's impossible. So here I am, groping for words with anguish and sadness. I hope that you'll somehow forgive me for what I'm about to write...

Do you remember how we met? We met through school. We met through music. It was the kind of music that brings people together, but instead you made it the kind of music that tears everyone apart.
You hurt me. Guess what though? I'm over it. You and I did not share anything wonderful, and I want you to never forget that. Nor do I want you to believe that you meant as much to me as I did to you. You meant quite a lot to me but you didn't want that.

I know that sounds like an excuse, but please believe me when I say that I haven't forgotten about you. I'll understand if you never want to talk to me, though you randomly call me, just as I'll understand if you end up hating me again. Writing this letter forces me to acknowledge that, and when I look in the mirror, I know I'm looking at someone who is happy....without you...

The one I'm with shared and IS sharing everything that is wonderful. I want her to, and she does, to believe that she means more than anything to me as I do to her. She is rare and beautiful. I fell in love with her, but more than that, meeting her made me realize what true love really means. Ever since I met her, I've always been looking up into the night and remembering everything her and I have been through together. When I close my eyes, I see her face. When I walk, it's almost as if I can feel her hand in mine. Those things are real to me, a magical bond that keeps us together. You and I had nothing.


Even though you may not want to hear it, I want you to know that you'll always a spot in my memories. In our time together, you said that there was a special place in your heart for me to claim, one you said you would carry forever and that no one could have ever replaced. You lied. 


The one I love right now... There's a special place in my heart for her to claim, one I would carry forever with no one replacing it. The only difference between me and you is that...I'm not lying. I have never said that to you, nor will I ever. She's the kind and honest girl, but more than that, she's the first girl I ever truly love and care for. And no matter what the future brings, she will always be, and I know that my life is better for it. 


I don't hate you, but I hate you. You left me. My door is locked, so stop knocking. I won't answer. I have my special someone over.

I'm so sorry..

Sincerely, me.

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The 1st morning of December.

The coldest morning I've ever had so far...and this is how it happened:
I woke up.
I brushed my teeth.
I put on a shirt.
I put on a sweater.
Got my bookbag.
Went outside.
The door closes and locks.
I forgot to put on my pants....SO FREAKING COLD!!!!!!!

I ended up walking to class like that with people looking at my legs the whole time hehe....
Everyone wore pants and I didn't...I felt left out. And stupid.

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Neon "underglow" underlights xD and stuff!

I recently bought purple underglow for my car and guess what? EVERY SINGLE TIME the website "PROCESSES"  my damn transaction, it keeps getting declined....The first time I tried it, I thought it was because I didn't have enough money on my card, because I really didn't. I put more in today and guess what? It STILL didn't work!!!! I called my bank and they made me feel so stupid. For the billing address, it's supposed to be the address my bank company has under. I thought I put it in there, but for some reason the word BATMAN was typed in the address line. I don't know how that happened but I felt so stupid lols. I finally bought it and can't wait to put it in.

At first I was choosing between turquoise or purple neon underglow. My car, Sophie, is blue so I wanted more of a blue color on it. In the state of Georgia, blue, red, and orange neon is illegal since they are emergency colors. I took a huge survey asking if turquoise was considered blue to them. 98% of them all said yes. I asked girls only though, only because girls see colors in a TOTALLY different way than guys. The guys I DID ask, were part of the 98%. Sucks haha. Purple looks nice on my car anyways. The fact that it sometime looks purple depending on the lighting xD

I took my final today for Chemistry lab. I don't know if I did well on it or not, but oh wells! After that, the lover asked for me to write her a couple of poems for her to choose from so she could enter them as hers on some site lols. Is this cheating? Nahhhhhhhhhh haha.

Well here are the pictures I promised, especially to the two followers I have haha. I have TWO! xP Beat that!!!

Presents!!

I put that pillow there for effect xP Nice, huh? haha

I wonder who the big present is for....xP

The big present has hello Kitty!! How nice....-_- lols

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